It’s been too long. #LIFE UPDATE

career, life, love, mental health, relationships, weight loss/Healthy food choices

I’ve truly missed blogging, I’m looking at my old post, I see my last one was in December. I’ve had so much happen since then and want to share a few things with you.

First for starters, I would like to say, I hope everyone is being safe at this time and well.

It’s been a tough Journey for me so I’ll break things down in order.

Relationships:

In February, I officially ended my two year relationship with my boyfriend, it was tough at first but I’m slowly moving on and looking forward to new beginnings, I believe everyone teaches you a lesson, I wasn’t happy he wasn’t happy and we wanted two different things, I wish him the best but of course it’s time time to move on.

Mental Health:

My anxiety and depression had gotten so bad lately it’s been horrible I’ve had to start seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist for help. I’ve even had suicidal thoughts and had to call the national suicide hotline for help, I have my good days and bad days, I’ve cried a lot and spent most of my time isolated lately. I’m trying to get back to the old me but its hard. I’m in a lot of pain and can’t seem to figure out where this pain is coming from. I’m still in the process of healing and trying to figure it all out, it’s all a process, I’m now on new medications and waiting for it to officially get in my system. Today was a good day no worries no anything just a bunch of working from home and spending time with my daughter. I pray for better days let’s hope it comes soon.

Job:

in December, i officially got a new job working at a counseling office and it’s been amazing, I get to help others like myself with mental health. I started Off working the front desk and now I’m an intake coordinator(I assist with new patients) i love being able to help people just like myself but of course sometimes it can be hard, needless to say I was happy to be out of my last job and being able to move on to a better place has helped me a whole lot. Right now I’m working from home but can’t lie I’m missing my office a lot so I’m kinda ready to head back but of course I want to be safe before doing all that.

Diet:

I officially stopped eating pork and beef, the transition actually wasn’t hard at all I basically cook separate from my family and everyone wins the goal is to be healthier and lose some weight and so far I’ve lost 3 pounds I know not a lot but it something so I’m going to keep going. I’m looking for some new food recipes trying to figure out what to cook that sounds good and looks good of course lol I’m leaving health is wealth so take care of your bodies guys it’s tough but worth it.

Mom life:

My daughter turned 3 in March, she’s getting so big and teaching me so many new things. I love being a mom and watching her grow and learn each day it’s a beautiful fun job, filled with much joy and lost or peace. She’s so spunky and care free and it’s beautiful to watch each day. Kids make life a little more enjoyable and they also slow you down so you take time to breath and enjoy all the beautiful moments.

Final thoughts:

I wrote this draft in May of 2020, Crazy how so much has changed since then, I wanted you guys to see this and read it,I’ll be doing an update soon on everything. It’s been almost a year since, I’ve blogged and I truly missed it. I’m finally back and can’t wait to continue back blogging with you again. I also have good news I’ve started a new blog here on word press called “love talk series”. Go check out my first blog post https://www.lovetalkseries.com I’m looking forward to more post. Thanks for the support and still continuing to comment and like my post. Look out for more post coming soon.

Loving others/judging less and learning to worry about you!

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I see a lot of things on social media that absolutely drive me crazy but of course little old quiet me never says anything, social media can be a good thing sometimes and other times not so much but in 2018 it seems to have taken over our lives, even our kids are sucked into this world.

We see things online that bother us all the time, some people choose to ignore it, I’m one of those types and others choose to speak out against it. Someone might post something on twitter that really gets under your skin, someone on Instagram might post a picture that we don’t necessarily like or agree with. Trust me things like this are seen all the time but does it mean we always have to respond and put our two cents in always? We really don’t,we have the power to walk away we don’t have to type back nasty things to someone we don’t know, we don’t even have to like that picture that was posted that we feel isn’t appropriate.

Day in and day out I see the most craziest things happening online, the problem isn’t that person. the problem is us and how we choose to react to what that person is doing. The reality is it’s not our business to worry about what another person is doing. so we may not like it but it’s not our place to step in and say anything, now some people might feel different about this they may feel you should speak up on certain things and I completely agree with that,however saying things to a complete stranger isn’t going to change their behavior so instead we need to change our behavior on how we choose to react to them.

People are always going to do things we don’t agree with, they may say things that make no sense at all to you, you have to allow people to live their lives even when it’s not the way we choose to live ours. The world has so much judgment in it today and it’s honestly sad because you make one wrong move and that’s it people never forget that one mistake that you made, it may of happened two years ago but trust me someone is going to bring it up because they are not over your mistakes. Being a human bean we have to realize no one is perfect and to sit behind a computer screen and attack someone for their differences is crazy to me. (Even in person it’s still not ok) Stop judging people, stop acting like your god because your not and it’s not your place to act as if your better than another person, no one in this world is perfect but we all strive to try to be better daily for ourselves, our kids, our families or friends.

Everyone has a different story to tell you never know what they are going through what may go through that persons mind daily and bullying someone is never ok. It sounds harsh saying it especially out loud but worry about yourself more and your business and you won’t have to worry about what anyone else around you is doing. The world is crazy enough we should all be coming together as one not going against each other and trying to hurt one another.

Love your neighbor because sometimes all we really need is to be loved and to feel love coming from another person, let’s try to judge less and love more is all I’m saying.

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