Super excited.. I have an announcement..

So, I officially have a podcast now and I Couldn’t be more excited about it, I’ve always wanted to do one in the past but never thought I could or that anyone would care to listen plus I needed a good topic.

To start..

I went on anchor it’s an app and It allows you to start your own podcast and allows you to share it wherever you want too. I did my first episode tonight and it’s only seven minutes long but the ones after will be longer and I’m super excited to share and voice my opinions with the world and talk about a topic that has honestly became very near and dear to my heart the past couple of months and means a lot to me.

Topic..

I will be talking about mental health/mental illness on my podcast, this subject has become such a Hugh part of my life the past year especially since starting this blog and being able to connect with others who deal with the same things as me or have similar backgrounds. It makes me happy to be able to help others with my story and also read others blogs and get to see the things they have gone through and how they find the strength to be happy and make it through each day. If I can change a life or make anyone out there feel better then that helps me to heal and helps me to know I’m doing something right.

What to look forward too.

So basically I’ll be blogging 3 days a week Friday-Sunday and also doing my podcast everyday or every other day and I hope you guys will take a listen. I’m going to find a way to balance it all, I also was doing YouTube but that has been on hold for now too. Timing isn’t always on my side as I would like it to be. Between work, being a mom and dealing with everything else I’m a busy bee during the week but I’m definitely going to find a way to get on track with everything and I’m going to post the links to all my sites on here so you guys can follow or take a look.

Final thoughts.

I’m really excited for what 2019 has in store for me and I can’t wait to expand and do different things and have fun while doing it. So for the ones that follow me I appreciate you so much for reading my blog and for the ones who view my blog and take the time to visit my page thank you as well. Im always grateful so keep looking out for more new things from me, I will keep you guys updated, enjoy your Sunday!

Keeping up with me:

https://www.instagram.com/xxangeliclovexx

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClMlsfycn0FYkgBkQU4Ik6A

anchor.fm/cherelle3 -podcast

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Helping others, your not alone..

Good Morning, it’s a beautiful Sunday morning and I can’t sleep, so I decided to work on my Sunday blog, I got this topic because in my last post I touched on mental illness and people sometimes needed help but not being able to seek it.

Story time*

Last night, I was talking to my boyfriend on the phone he called me kind of in a panic and, I was wondering what’s going on and he started to tell me about his brother acting strange, So in the past his brother has struggled with mental illness and had break downs due to personal things going on in his life and he said “babe my brother is acting strange again, I think his mental illness is back again” I explained to him, I said mental illness doesn’t go away, you find ways to control it and try to keep it in control but it never fully goes away. You can use things like medication to help or you can try to control it on your own. I think that’s a big thing for me and not everyone knows all the signs or what to do when they have a friend or family member in these situations.

Helping someone..

If you see a friend or family member dealing with something the best thing to do is to monitor that person because you don’t wanna jump the gun and assume something is wrong right away and then it turns out to be nothing. The worse thing you can do is upset someone who is already in a tough situation, I remember masking my pain a lot not being able to tell anyone that help was needed, I would cry in silence, I was miserable everyday my anxiety was getting worse my depression had kicked in and yet ,I was still putting on an act for the world wearing a fake smile and one day, I broke down to my mom and told her everything that was going on, I knew I had to reach out to someone because help was needed.

Signs to look for-

I grabbed this from https://www.psychiatry.org/patients-families/warning-signs-of-mental-illness so go check this website out guys!

1.sleep or appetite change

2.mood changes

3.withdrawal

3.drop in functioning

4.problems thinking

5.feeling disconnected

These are Only a few, so check there website out for me information.

I wanted to shed light on this because so many people out here need help or are reaching out and no one is there for them. I want no one out there to feel alone in talking to my boyfriend last night it made me realize, some people don’t know what to do in this situations all the time and they feel helpless trying to save someone. I feel like mental illness needs to be talked about more and a light really needs to be shed on this type of topics. I see so much of it around me now and I see so much of it going UN noticed and the last thing you want is someone you love hurting.

Final thoughts-

Please don’t suffer in silence, if you need help or someone around you needs help. Please get the help you need and don’t feel ashamed to ask. It’s Sunday so I’m going to lighten this up a little.please enjoy your day also, I may do a double post today. Give someone a hug today and let them know they are not alone.

Saturday morning thoughts.

Waking up, I’m grateful for seeing another day and as I sit here in my thoughts, I’m starting to think about everything I’ve been through the past year and how strong I truly am, I remember being the quiet shy girl in school never speaking up for herself never being able to be vocal due to fear and now I can’t shut up lol. I always have something to say or I wanna vocalize something.

My courage.

I talk a lot about mental health now with people around me where as before I was scared to tell anyone, I suffered with depression or anxiety, it was like a hidden secret that the world could not know about in my mind it was embarrassing and a secret I kept from everyone around me but now, I find myself talking about it with everyone around me and you would be surprised to know how many people around me suffer as well. The medication helps me a lot it gets me through the the tough days. I’m learning to smile again and not let the little things bring me down.

The world 🌎

The world is such a cold place now so much wrong going on and so many people suffering it really truly makes me sad to see all the things going on. To see so many people dying or attempting to reach out for help and no one is there for them. I use to watch the news every night but cannot even stomach it anymore due to all the bad things happening. Its so easy to reach out and touch someone and let them know they are not alone and it will be ok, I think that’s why mental heath has become such a big thing for me this blog has helped me with that lot and also because so many people suffer and no one knows.

Final thoughts..

I encourage you to be a light in someone else’s life and make someone smile on this beautiful Saturday morning and let them know “you are not alone” I am here. Enjoy your Saturday and don’t forget to smile and tell someone you love them today.

I’m back!!

It feels good to be back, I know I’ve been gone for a while the last post I did was on Christmas Eve like I’m the worse, I already know. I’m going to dedicate myself more to my blog, I’m going to be posting every Saturday/Sunday starting this week. Those are the best days for me, I’m going to start this blogging thing off right and be more dedicated to keeping up and letting you guys know what’s going on with me more.

So basically I’m going to catch you up on where I’ve been and what’s been going on since the last post. So hang in here with me guys because it’s about to get long winded lol jk or am I? πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ so let’s get started.

Anxiety update:

My anxiety has been so good and I’m happy to say, I haven’t been depressed or sad in a while and that’s a good feeling for me. I’ve been seeing my doctor on a regular basis and he has me on my anxiety meds witch are working amazing , he even up my dosage at our last visit and it’s been going well so far, the only side effect I’m not liking too much is the drowsiness and feeling sleepy but other then that the medicine is perfect, I’m learning I’m one of those people that needs meds to function and I’ve accepted that and I’m not ashamed I’m actually proud to admit I’m far from perfect. I would rather be safe then sorry. I’ve been trying to stay up beat and positive about anything and keep the negative out my circle and away from me. I’ll definitely keep you updated on my anxiety.

Relationship:

I was so happy to celebrate my one year anniversary with my wonderful boyfriend on the 6th of January, it’s been an amazing year, his been an amazing guy and he treats my daughter so well so, I couldn’t ask for a better man to be in my life this is the happiest I’ve ever been with someone and I’m glad we met each other when we did. It’s nothing like good timing to help you meet the right person when you lease expect it. I also wanna do a blog post this up coming weekend on relationships. I’m going to do more post on relationships in the upcoming future.

My diet:

I don’t even wanna deal with this lol but geez I gotta get back on track I’ve gained a few pounds back unfortunately, so can’t say I’ve been on track but I do plan on starting the keto diet next week with my mom so, I will let you guys know how that works. It’s so hard to stick to this diet thing, I do so well for a month or two then I slip up again and it’s disappointing but I’m human and I’m going to keep pushing and love the skin I’m in. I’m going to get healthy this year and do what’s best for me on my terms and my standards not what everyone else wants me to do. I will keep you guys updated on this aspect of my life as well let’s keep those fingers crossed 🀞

What you can expect:

So with it being a new year, I really wanna blog more about different things, I don’t wanna stick to always talking about my anxiety or dieting so my next steps is to talk more about hair, makeup, relationships, and all other things and I’ll even post videos on here as well. I’m going to kick this blog up going forward and you can also expect a Q&A from me soon as well. So guys, I hope you had an amazing new year and I hope you enjoy your week I’ll be posting again on Saturday so look out for it.

Favorite Christmas Foods.

Hello, lovelies, I’m back! Better late then never. It’s Christmas Eve and I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas. I’m in the process of watching movies on Netflix and watching my daughter play with her toys. I promised this blog post so gotta deliver. I’m going to share with you guys some of my favorite Christmas foods.

Main course-

1.Ham- so my mom does ham every year for Christmas and as I’ve said in previous post I stopped eating beef and pork for a while but I’ve kinda went back to eating it due to health reasons and because my nutritionist changed my meal plan so yes but anyway ham is good I love it especially when my mom makes it.

2.green bean casserole- this is my favorite ever my mom only makes this once a year so gotta enjoy it while I can, it’s one of my favorite Christmas dishes and my dad also loves this he was the one that got us hooked on it because someone at his job made it.

3.macaroni and cheese-

I love love Mac and cheese it’s an all time favorite. We usually make a big tray around Christmas and it’s so good lots of cheese and pasta and not to mention it’s one of those foods you have to go back for seconds on. I’m getting better at making it.

4. Potato salad-

Potatoe salad is another family tradition we usually make this for thanksgiving too and my mom makes the best, I have tried to make it myself but it doesn’t compare to hers at all and I’m really picky with eating foods so I will only eat her cooking around the holidays.

Deserts-

Apple pie-

I love homemade apple pie, I got this recipe out of a cookbook and I’ve been obsessed with it every since, I usually make this every year except this year I’m taking a baking break and I got a store brought cake.

Peanuts butter kiss cookies-

This is another favorite, I made it last night actually with my daughter it was so good. I usually get Betty Crocker bag of cookies you can bake and mix and then I add Hershey kiss candies in the middle of the cookies once it comes out the oven it’s become a family favorite.

Chocolate cake-

This is my favored brand of cake omg, I love a good chocolate cake. It taste yummy and I love chocolate so it works for me. I can’t remember the last time I baked a cake though it’s been a while, I take that back I did on thanksgiving but that was a disaster needless to say lol.

And last but not least…

White House rolls-

I love love this rolls and I love bread so it works perfectly for me, my mom gets these every year they Taste so good in the oven with a dab of butter on them, it’s perfection!

Ok guys so these are a few of my favorites, I hope you guys enjoy your holiday with family and friends, merry Christmas!

Story time*

So, I finally got my anxiety/depression meds on Friday and saw my doctor, his really on me about taking my medicine everyday, I know, I know it sounds easy but I’m always convincing myself that I’m feeling better and don’t need it anymore so I stop taking it for long periods but I’m realizing I can’t keep doing that. I never really realized how my anxiety and depression effected others around me until recently my family and boyfriend told me some of my behaviors and how they think taking my medicine daily will help. I try to stay Pretty level headed for the most part and I’m really good at pretending to be happy when I’m not I’ve gotten so good at covering up my emotions and feelings to the point where people will actually think I’m ok, my patients always commend me and tell me how happy I look and how I’m always smiling yet they don’t know what it takes for me to wear that smile.

Medication-

So my doctor has me taking Lexapro, I don’t know, if anyone has heard of that or taken it before but he loves to keep me on that medication in the past it has helped so will see, I started taking them yesterday and boy oh boy let me tell you I was so sleepy and I felt extremely nauseous all day long and I know that’s a side effect but it sucked. I’ve taken other meds in the past too its another one very popular but for some reason as I type this I cannot think of the name, that medicine gave me crazy side effects too it made me cry all the time and I felt crazy so I stopped taking it but don’t get me wrong I know medicine helps but it’s still that feeling of when will it be a day where I can actually be normal and not have to worry about what’s going to happen each day and how it will effect me. I probably should still see my therapist maybe? I don’t know will see.

Something my doctor said( wanna shed light on it)-

I was explaining to my doctor about my depression and I’m sitting There waiting for a reply he then goes “well a lot of times around this year people get depressed around the holidays” and I don’t wanna be rude but I’m thinking my depression has been here for a while now it has nothing to do with the damn holidays. I get some people do get sad around this time due to missing family and friends or being alone but why must he assume I’m one of those people as long as I’ve been going to him for my anxiety he should know it has nothing to do with the holidays. He then proceeded to ask if I’m suicidal and of course I’m not, I’ve never thought about taking my life but of course I’m human and I’ve had times where I’m like “I don’t wanna do this anymore” as in deal with the problems I have but no never going to take my life. I like my doctor don’t get me wrong it’s Just some times he tries to self diagnose me like his a psychologist and I’m like ok your my family doctor not my therapist let’s Keep it that way is all I’m saying.

Job update-

I’ll make this short because I already know this post is a little long. I talked to my current job and told them that I was staying there and not taking the new job I had offered, the office manager there wasn’t really not professional at all and I honestly don’t wanna work for a place like that. In January I’ll start looking for new jobs to apply to again but for the rest of this month I’m taking time off and relaxing.

Conclusion-

Thanks for listening to my cute story time/rant guys, I know I’m a mess sometimes also I wanted to tell more stories but this post is already long so I’ll save it, also my next post will be about my favorite Christmas foods so look out for it guys. Enjoy your Sunday ✌️

Life goes on..

So crazy how Life can be sometimes and how things happen that we don’t always expect to happen. So in my last post things we’re looking up for me or so I though. I don’t wanna make this super long so I’m going to get right into it.

My anxiety/depression –

I was honestly happy for a while, I felt good everything seemed to be fine, however so much has happened and honestly I’ve come to the conclusion and so have others around me that it’s best I stay on my meds. I honestly wish that it was possible for me to be medication free but for now and because it seems for the best I’m seeing my doctor this week about more medication to help me. The weird part is I try to be happy and I try to not be depressed but it’s sad because I find myself always on edge and upset most of the time and I can’t control it like I want too. I think it’s best for me to take my medication and seek my therapy until things get better. This is not a set back for me more so something that I have to get through and I know in the end things will come out better and I’ll be stronger. I’m learning it’s ok to take medication and please don’t ever be ashamed to do that.

The Job-

In my last post, I stated that I had a great interview that was suppose to lead to a Job and please excuse any bad language in this post but it’s how I feel. The lady that supposedly hired me is full of shit, she basically played me in a way because she told me that the position was mine even the doctor there told me that it was mine,then she told me she was going to send me some paper work to fill out and call my job for a reference so needless to say a week goes by,I don’t hear from her at all, so today I decided to call.she picked up and acted like she didn’t know who I was or what was going on, it was crazy then she has this bull shit excuse saying that she has been busy because the office was closed due to bad weather yesterday it was a bunch of crap to me like how do we go from two interviews to telling me I’m hired and your going to email me paper work to this, now she’s claiming she’s doing more interviews as well, I honestly feel like you can’t trust anybody now a days but honestly I blocked the number because I don’t want any more parts to this company and I don’t want her calling me to offer me anything because she’s full of shit. (Again sorry for the language).

What’s next-

So basically I even told my Job that, that I was leaving so imagine my embarrassment so now to make a long story short gotta tell my Job tomorrow that I’m not leaving, so yes this has been a Hugh mess but no matter what I’m going to keep smiling and keep pushing. Gotta be grateful to have a job now a days so can’t let this break me I’m going to keep pushing and keep moving and do what’s best for me. I wish this post was a little more positive, I gotta speak my truth even when it doesn’t feel right or always sound the way I want it too. Anyway going to end this and enjoy the rest of my day off because it’s back to work tomorrow so enjoy your Tuesday.

Life update :)

Hey guys, I’m going to make this post quick and to the point, I been double missing lately but I also been super busy and Trying to get ready for the holidays. I wanted to wait to even talk about this but might as well spill the beans and give you an update on life and what’s been new with me.

Anxiety-

My anxiety lately has been so good, I haven’t had any major set backs, I haven’t had to take my anxiety meds or anything. Ive been super calm no stress, just living a great great life and I pray it stays like this for a long time. I don’t want anything flaring my anxiety up so I don’t wanna jinx it either but for the most part it’s been so good and I’m happy.

Depression-

My depression is also very well lately, I haven’t really been sad I been in a great mood, I’m not crying all the time or being with drawn from everybody around me or feeling not like myself so far I’ve been in great sprits and I’ve decided not to go see my therapist since I’m doing so well. This is another thing that I don’t wanna jinx and i pray doesn’t resurface anytime soon because being sad/depressed is honestly no fun and I was miserable everyday. So gotta keep my fingers crossed.🀞

My job-

I’m still at my current job, things there have been looking up actually, no drama between my co workers and I, everyone is getting along and were getting the job done and it’s actually been a good work environment here lately. I’m grateful for the position and the job that I’ve been given but I also had an interview at another drs office last week and they called me back and they want to meet with me again this up coming week to discuss the job more and let me meet the dr, so it’s looking good so far and I think I may have a new job but don’t wanna jinx that either or jump the gun too quick so I won’t go into to much detail about it yet but guys if I land this job things will definitely start looking up and this would be a good look for me so I will keep you guys posted on it.

Conclusion-

Nothing is perfect but I’ve been doing well lately and I want it to stay that way so I’m trying to stay positive and keep the negativity away from me. I’m sorry I suck at blogging lately the app is on my phone, I really have no valid excuses for my lack of blogging but I’m going to get better( I know I say that a lot) I really am please be patient with me and if you wanna see what else I’m doing you can go subscribe to my YouTube channelhttps://www.youtube.com/channel/UClMlsfycn0FYkgBkQU4Ik6A ,I’ve been doing a lot of videos lately and I’ll be doing one later and posting it tonight so be on the look out for that. Enjoy your Sunday I’m back to watching movies on Netflix. Talk to you soon!

Holiday weight gain😩|tips to get back on track.

So,we have all been there,unfortunately where the holidays come and all of a sudden all that weight loss goes right out the window and bam you have gained all your weight back or at least some of it. I had a lovely thanksgiving with friends and family and a couple of days off work so that helped too but of course it’s back to work Monday and I’m dreading it?but I do have some good news, I’ll wait to share and again I’m sorry for being being M.I.A been so busy these days with so many things but I will get better in due time.

I wanna give you guys 5 tips on how to get back on track after the holidays so don’t feel discouraged guys because we all fall down but we can get back up. I only gained 3 pounds but still it feels like a lot in my eyes and I feel gross (being honest) but it will pass and I’ll be back on track starting tomorrow.

Let’s get started.

1. Clean all bad foods out of your home-

So this is a Hugh one because I won’t lie, I had so many bad foods in my house due to the holidays and I been eating and snacking like crazy and it’s like you get one cookie then you gotta grab another cookie πŸ€¦β€β™€οΈ I know I know but it happens so the best thing to do is clean out your house of all bad foods and start fresh with all healthy ones, it will make you feel 100% better and you won’t have to worry about snacking on anything bad.

2. Make sure your using your weight loss app to document foods/ Stay in calorie range-

I kinda got off track and stopped documenting what foods I’ve been eating since the holidays, so I’m not even sure if I was in calorie range or under or over, so yes I been eating and not having a clue what’s been going on and now I’m looking at my app and feel so so guilty but again like I said we are all allowed days to eat bad sometimes ,so yes it happens but I will definitely get back on track using my app and again guys go download this app it’s works www.sparkpeople.com

3. Have a great support system-

This is also really important guys, because when you fall off the wagon you need someone around you to pick you back up and support you no matter what and keep you motivated. my mom is that person for me she always diets with me and keeps pushing me to do better, even when I’m like no don’t wanna do it, like today she told me I looked skinny of course I’m like no mom ,no not this girl but it’s hearing those compliments that make me smile and feel better,like this can be done and I can reach my goal so remember kick those people to the curb when they doubt you or bring you down because you can do it.

4. Go to the gym/walk the neighborhood-

I haven’t been to the gym in so long ,won’t even lie but going back may not be a bad idea even if you don’t wanna go or can’t go take a walk around your neighbor hood ,your body will feel so much better and thank you in the long run a little exercise helps and it’s also good for clearing your mind and relieving stress. So I’m going to make it a daily goal again to try to go the gym at least once or twice a week to start off especially for the new year. (If it’s cold where you live wrap up please don’t want anyone getting a cold) take it one day at a time it’s no rush.

5. Drink plenty of water/have fun with your weight loss-

So please always remember to drink plenty of water and stay hydrated guys that’s important when trying to lose weight and our bodies need water and if your someone who is not a big fan of water you can use water enhancers to enhance the flavor in your water it’s 0% juice and it taste good and your water taste great too, I have two in my cabinet now. Check down the Juice isle in your local grocery store. Guys don’t allow your weight loss to take over your life, this should be something fun and enjoyable not something that makes you miserable or becomes and obsession, so make sure to take a few deep breaths and relax and again it’s ok to have a cheat day or two remember it’s all about your health and being healthy , it should be a fun lifestyle change not a miserable one.

Conclusion-

Losing weight is not always easy and has its ups and downs but it’s worth it, when trying to be healthy, so take your time with it and everything will be ok, I had a little set back but I’m going to keep pushing, damn these holidays lol jk but again hope everyone had a great thanksgiving and great time with family and I’m off to relax before bed. Don’t let the holidays get you down keep pushing, I believe in you. I’ll be back sooner than later ✌️

My favorite thanksgiving meals.

Ok guys I’m back again, I apologize for going missing again, I’ve been so busy with work and amongst other things and I’ve been neglecting my blog, I promise to do better guys. The holidays are coming up so why not talk about thanksgiving and what my favorite holiday dishes are, so let’s get in the spirit and let’s get into it.

The main course-

Turkey- I love turkey well sometimes it’s a light food and it’s healthy and has great protein and for those out there who don’t like turkey you can always substitute it with another meat that Taste better not everyone has turkey on thanksgiving I’m sure.

Greens- so it’s kind of a tradition my mom always makes greens every year except on Christmas she will make strong bean casserole witch I do love a lot. This is also very healthy and taste good so it’s good especially when dieting.

Mac/cheese- yes I love my Mac and cheese it’s so good my dad makes the best but my mom tries lol it’s still good though but it’s one of my favorites to eat I can eat Mac and cheese all day long literally lol but you gotta eat that in moderation.

Stuffing- stuffing is so good with gravy it’s the best my mom always makes too much of it though luckily all the guest eat it all so it works out in the end again eat this in moderation.

Rolls- yes bread has lots of carbs but I can’t resist on thanksgiving I love my rolls I eat at least two I won’t even lie it’s so good fresh out the oven with butter yummy I get hungry talking about it lol.

Can’t forget..

Potato salad- another family tradition like I wonder if we will switch it up one day and do just plain mash potatoes I wouldn’t mind something new and different but again everyone loves it so we stick too it for now and yes it’s good.

Dessert-

Apple pie- so normally every year I do an apple pie this year I’m making a chocolate cake by scratch to try something new and I got the recipes off my apps so it’s healthier then the normal cake you would bake you substitute the oil with yogurt so yes I will tell you how that turns out

Sweet potato pie- this is another family tradition my mom bakes two of these pies every year and of course we usually don’t have any left over because it’s a guest favorite. I normally don’t eat it because at that time I wasn’t even eating sweet potatoes but this year I may try it, you never know.

Coconut cake- my aunt usually makes coconut cake every year it’s her favorite cake to bake and it’s actually perky good even though I’m not really a fan of coconuts or the flavor I still try it out every year and it’s not half bad.

Also..

Cookies- so sometimes when I don’t do cakes or pies I bake cookies usually I do peanut butter cookies and I take Hershey cookies and place them in the middle it’s so good and a family favorite so maybe I’ll make it for Christmas you never know.

So thanks for allowing me back into your homes, it’s been fun blogging today but gotta get myself ready for work tomorrow, I will definitely be blogging more soon and I know I say this all the time but I’m coming back guys I really am, if I haven’t posted by thanksgiving I hope you all enjoy your holiday and time off if you get time off. Sweet dreams 😴