Life update 12/19 ðŸ™‚

career, life, mental health

I’ve missed you all, I’ve missed blogging and being on here to post my thoughts and feelings. So much has happened over the past couple of months and it’s a lot so bare with me through out this post as I described it all to you.

Work life/Career:

I was working at a pain management clinic for the past three years as a medical assistant, it was great for a while and then things started to take a turn for the worse. I was so unhappy and it wasn’t feeling good anymore, I was being harassed and verbally abused daily by an employee who worked with me, I went to the doctor several times about her and he refused to do anything, he would rather lose me as an employee then fire the girl who causes drama, I even had a work best friend who was taking up for me and telling him things as well, he still continued to take her side and the final straw was when she kept trying to get me fired and then on top of that she was trying to strip my Job away from me and hire students to replace me, I was at my breaking point, so I walked out and quit and did my farewell it was the best decision for me, I texted my doctor my farewell and said goodbye to my three year job and it was the best decision, I’ve learned so much about myself through this process and I’m ready to let go of that place of employment and that past and move on to a better place to work. I’ve had a lot of interviews and I’ve been finding out what works for me and what, I love to do so with that being said I’m hoping to land a new Job soon and I’m always grateful for the support of my family/friends through this process ( also I had an amazing interview Wednesday and I hope I land this job). Keep you guys posted!

New Instagram:

I started a new Instagram guys!!! It’s my baby yes yes, it’s geared towards mental health and I make videos and do quotes, the page is up and running and I’m excited it’s still in the works, I don’t have a lot of followers yet but I’m still glad to be spreading my message to help others in need. So please go check out my page!! https://www.instagram.com/spreadloveawareness it’s my baby again so be kind and gentle with me, my goal is to help others any way that god will allow me too. It’s so many mental health pages on Instagram and it’s truly amazing to see so many people who are willing to help others and be there for one another. I love all the love being spread on that platform.

My new website:

I officially made a new website guys! It’s ok square space and again you gotta check it out, it’s geared toward mental health and helping others and what makes this page different is I have a store attached to it, where I’m going to be selling clothes and jewelry that’s have mental health slogans and sayings on them and I’m going to be getting a P.O. Box as well for anyone who wants to send me mail or letters or anything really and I’ll use that to send out the shirts and jewelry that will be made. It will all be up and running in January of 2020. So Check out my website and spread the support https://www.spreadloveawareness.com go take a look when your free, I’m so excited for what 2020 will be bringing for me and my advocacy and I’m hoping to be able to actually do public speaking in the future but one thing at a time for right now.

Relationship:

My boyfriend and I will be together for two years next month and it’s been a blessing, he has been so supportive of me through everything and I’m grateful for that, we made us work and no matter the obstacles we kept going and love won every time so don’t give up because love is worth it with the right person, so to anyone who’s single your love is waiting in 2020 with chocolates or roses ready to take you out and hopefully become your soulmate.

What I’ve learned:

Life will sometimes knock you down or take you through unexpected turns but it’s what you do to make it through the tough times and how you handle what happens to you, I will keep smiling and never give up when one door closes another will always open. Never let anyone bring you down or tell you that you are lesser because you are truly amazing, I can’t wait to see what 2020 holds for me. I’ll keep you guys posted on what’s next for me. I’m going to get better with posting. Promise! Enjoy your weekend ❤️

Life update :)

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Hey guys, I’m going to make this post quick and to the point, I been double missing lately but I also been super busy and Trying to get ready for the holidays. I wanted to wait to even talk about this but might as well spill the beans and give you an update on life and what’s been new with me.

Anxiety-

My anxiety lately has been so good, I haven’t had any major set backs, I haven’t had to take my anxiety meds or anything. Ive been super calm no stress, just living a great great life and I pray it stays like this for a long time. I don’t want anything flaring my anxiety up so I don’t wanna jinx it either but for the most part it’s been so good and I’m happy.

Depression-

My depression is also very well lately, I haven’t really been sad I been in a great mood, I’m not crying all the time or being with drawn from everybody around me or feeling not like myself so far I’ve been in great sprits and I’ve decided not to go see my therapist since I’m doing so well. This is another thing that I don’t wanna jinx and i pray doesn’t resurface anytime soon because being sad/depressed is honestly no fun and I was miserable everyday. So gotta keep my fingers crossed.🤞

My job-

I’m still at my current job, things there have been looking up actually, no drama between my co workers and I, everyone is getting along and were getting the job done and it’s actually been a good work environment here lately. I’m grateful for the position and the job that I’ve been given but I also had an interview at another drs office last week and they called me back and they want to meet with me again this up coming week to discuss the job more and let me meet the dr, so it’s looking good so far and I think I may have a new job but don’t wanna jinx that either or jump the gun too quick so I won’t go into to much detail about it yet but guys if I land this job things will definitely start looking up and this would be a good look for me so I will keep you guys posted on it.

Conclusion-

Nothing is perfect but I’ve been doing well lately and I want it to stay that way so I’m trying to stay positive and keep the negativity away from me. I’m sorry I suck at blogging lately the app is on my phone, I really have no valid excuses for my lack of blogging but I’m going to get better( I know I say that a lot) I really am please be patient with me and if you wanna see what else I’m doing you can go subscribe to my YouTube channelhttps://www.youtube.com/channel/UClMlsfycn0FYkgBkQU4Ik6A ,I’ve been doing a lot of videos lately and I’ll be doing one later and posting it tonight so be on the look out for that. Enjoy your Sunday I’m back to watching movies on Netflix. Talk to you soon!

I’m back/what’s been going on (part 1) â¤ï¸

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Ok guys so I’m back finally, I missed doing this so much, I hope everyone is doing well, I’m finally ready to talk about what’s been going on so let’s get in to it.

Dealing with my dad..

Ok so in a previous post I told you guys my dad and I were closer, well lately it’s been nothing but bickering between him and I, I didn’t feel like he loved me or even cared he was constantly getting on me about every little thing and always telling me how to parent my daughter and honestly that got old quick. I went to my mom and expressed to her that I was tired of it all and that I was done trying to form a relationship with my father, she was not having that so she spoke with him about some of the things that I have been feeling towards him and our relationship, long story short we had a heart to heart and talked, I’m a big baby and I cried and he told me he loved me and we have since been moving towards a good space with each other ( it’s a work in progress) I think with time my dad and I can get back to having that close relationship we once had when I was younger. So I will definitely keep you posted on this and more.

My child’s father coming back into our lives..

In a previous post I stated that I was a single parent because my child’s father choose not to be around well out of the blue I get a text/call from him stating that he wants to be apart of his daughters life now and how he has changed. I’ve been waiting for this moment for a very very long time but it was also scary for me being that I’m in a new relationship and I wasn’t sure how my daughter would even react to meeting him. The conversation started off rocky we weren’t getting along and honestly I was giving up hope but we have turned it around sort of, I clearly have a long way to go before I can trust him or let him be alone with my daughter but we will have to keep trying until everyone is comfortable with it. This has been really hard and it’s causing me to have to re live moments that I personally don’t want too but I will do it all for my daughter. I’m going to hope and pray that he will do right by her and things will move in a good direction so that we can co parent the right way.

My job..

So things at work were going great and then they went left again because in my mind I feel like I’m always being targeted for some reason maybe because I choose to be quiet and stay to myself, so anyway long story short I’m thinking everything is good between me and the girls(co workers) well clearly I was wrong I’m always being blind sighted and it sucks when I’m always being a good person I felt in my eyes if their is a problem why not address me instead of talking about me as if I’m not in the room or proceeding to tell me how to do my job when your not my boss is all I’m saying, I feel as adults it’s ways you handle things and ways you don’t and I’m over being nice to people who clearly don’t deserve it. I have tried to be the bigger person over and over again but it seems to get me no where so I’m at the point of just staying to myself and not dealing with anyone. I will never get why some adults can be so catty and nasty for no reason it’s sad and pathetic to be honest like grow up is all I can say. I want to say more but of course I will reveal more in the part 2 I do on this story.

Conclusion..

Things have been so crazy these past few weeks omg like literally and I’ve been trying to deal with it all and be there for everyone around me at the same time, I won’t lie I’m scared my anxiety is about to flare up again and it’s scaring me because I’ve done so good with the no meds but with all these things going on it’s enough to send me spiraling back into another break down because honestly this is all crazy but all I can do is try to deal with it the best way I know how, also thanks so much for being patient with me during this time. I will definitively be doing a part 2 to this blog post because there is more. Enjoy your weekend guys, sending lots and lots of love your way ❤️

Why I chose to go back to school/How it helped me with my career.

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For a really long time, I was extremely confused on what I wanted to do with my life I worked a bunch of odd jobs(fast food,retail) those jobs never paid enough and I was tired of worrying about money and being unhappy with my career/job choice but before I go any further let me back this story up a little

I remember when I turned 18 my parents had my future pretty much planned out for me they wanted me to go to college even though that’s not what I wanted but I caved in anyway and went, at that time my major was nursing but again I was miserable with the whole college thing. I made plenty of friends and had great professors but my mind wasn’t in to it and I would of rather been somewhere else.

I started skipping classes and pretending like I had gone to school,when clearly I wasn’t going at all and I found myself lying to my parents about my education on top of that my grandmother passed away from breast cancer during that time so my mind wasn’t their anymore, it got to the point where school was no longer apart of me and I decided to leave school and find myself a job but working back in fast food didn’t last long. I was tired of making minimum wage and dealing with rude customers, I stuck it out for two years and then one day I decided school was where I needed to be.

I went to plenty of private colleges until I fell upon fortis, it was a great fit for me I loved the staff and I felt like I could get a great eduction there. I’ve always wanted to help others so when my financial advisor told me about the medical assisting program I immediately decided that’s what I wanted to do, I signed up and started classes the following month, it was a great experience and I met a lot of great people. I went on to do my externship and got hired, I now work for a great doctor at a great medical facility and I love what I do. It’s never too late to go back to school, it’s never to late to chase your dreams and never give up on what you wanna do ever.

I’m completely happy with my decision and I love the career that I’m in and eventually I plan on going back to school for nursing (RN) so look out world 🌎 cherelle is coming for you.

Remember positivity/an open mind will

Get you places!