I’m back/what’s been going on (part 1) ❤️

Ok guys so I’m back finally, I missed doing this so much, I hope everyone is doing well, I’m finally ready to talk about what’s been going on so let’s get in to it.

Dealing with my dad..

Ok so in a previous post I told you guys my dad and I were closer, well lately it’s been nothing but bickering between him and I, I didn’t feel like he loved me or even cared he was constantly getting on me about every little thing and always telling me how to parent my daughter and honestly that got old quick. I went to my mom and expressed to her that I was tired of it all and that I was done trying to form a relationship with my father, she was not having that so she spoke with him about some of the things that I have been feeling towards him and our relationship, long story short we had a heart to heart and talked, I’m a big baby and I cried and he told me he loved me and we have since been moving towards a good space with each other ( it’s a work in progress) I think with time my dad and I can get back to having that close relationship we once had when I was younger. So I will definitely keep you posted on this and more.

My child’s father coming back into our lives..

In a previous post I stated that I was a single parent because my child’s father choose not to be around well out of the blue I get a text/call from him stating that he wants to be apart of his daughters life now and how he has changed. I’ve been waiting for this moment for a very very long time but it was also scary for me being that I’m in a new relationship and I wasn’t sure how my daughter would even react to meeting him. The conversation started off rocky we weren’t getting along and honestly I was giving up hope but we have turned it around sort of, I clearly have a long way to go before I can trust him or let him be alone with my daughter but we will have to keep trying until everyone is comfortable with it. This has been really hard and it’s causing me to have to re live moments that I personally don’t want too but I will do it all for my daughter. I’m going to hope and pray that he will do right by her and things will move in a good direction so that we can co parent the right way.

My job..

So things at work were going great and then they went left again because in my mind I feel like I’m always being targeted for some reason maybe because I choose to be quiet and stay to myself, so anyway long story short I’m thinking everything is good between me and the girls(co workers) well clearly I was wrong I’m always being blind sighted and it sucks when I’m always being a good person I felt in my eyes if their is a problem why not address me instead of talking about me as if I’m not in the room or proceeding to tell me how to do my job when your not my boss is all I’m saying, I feel as adults it’s ways you handle things and ways you don’t and I’m over being nice to people who clearly don’t deserve it. I have tried to be the bigger person over and over again but it seems to get me no where so I’m at the point of just staying to myself and not dealing with anyone. I will never get why some adults can be so catty and nasty for no reason it’s sad and pathetic to be honest like grow up is all I can say. I want to say more but of course I will reveal more in the part 2 I do on this story.

Conclusion..

Things have been so crazy these past few weeks omg like literally and I’ve been trying to deal with it all and be there for everyone around me at the same time, I won’t lie I’m scared my anxiety is about to flare up again and it’s scaring me because I’ve done so good with the no meds but with all these things going on it’s enough to send me spiraling back into another break down because honestly this is all crazy but all I can do is try to deal with it the best way I know how, also thanks so much for being patient with me during this time. I will definitively be doing a part 2 to this blog post because there is more. Enjoy your weekend guys, sending lots and lots of love your way ❤️

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Top 5 favorite love quotes

So again everyone should know by now I’m a sucker for love always so, I thought I would share my top five favorite love quotes with you guys, I hope you like and enjoy.

Let’s get started..

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This is a good quote because it teaches you to be strong in your relationship, basically your going to go through things in your relationship but in the end, it will make your relationship 100 % stronger. Let’s face it no relationships is perfect!

2.

This is so true, it’s the exact same reason I fell for my boyfriend, remember to always enjoy your relationship and don’t let the little things break you. Always laugh and talk and remember why you fell in love and most importantly appreciate one another and love hard.

3.

This quote is true in so many ways, sometimes we tend to settle for the wrong person because In our mind we think they are the one we’re so blinded by love that we can’t even see that, that person isn’t the one. so in our minds this is what we think we deserve, when really we deserve so much better, please don’t settle guys someone out there is willing to give you the love you really do deserve.( someone I know is in a smiler situation and it’s sad watching her being miserable and unhappy with the wrong person) hopefully she realizes what she truly deserves soon.

4.

I love this bob Marley quote it’s true in so many ways, unfortunately you will get hurt sometimes by people you love. The amazing thing is you have right to choose who you want in your life and who you don’t want around you. Don’t allow someone to keep hurting you over and over again because that means they don’t care enough to consider your feelings love is never easy but it’s worth it with the right person alway remember that.

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This goes back to self love again, you must love and respect yourself first before you expect someone else too. Remember it’s ok to be single focus on yourself sometimes make sure your ok before you try to be with anybody else. Self love is the best love and as this quote says you set the tone for the relationships you wanna have in your life weather it be from family, friends or boyfriend/girlfriends.

Conclusion..

So these are some of my favorite love quotes of course there is more so their will definitely be a part two coming soon. Remember to love and be loved is the best feeling also remember to love yourself first and always choose happiness. Goodnight I’m off to bed now enjoy the ones you love and spread lots of joy. ❤️

My top 5 favorite quotes

I have a few quotes that I really like a lot and that stick with me, you see quotes all the time online or even in books or on tv but I honestly think a lot of quotes are relatable and at some point weather we want to admit it or not that quote probably has gotten us through something in our lives at one point.

Let’s get too it….

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This is one of my favorite relationship quotes especially now since I’m in a a long distance relationship it speaks volumes to me so to everyone in long distance relationships this is for you. You can do it, love always wins!

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This inspirational quote is another favorite because it’s about living in the moment, life is so short, you have to live every second like it’s your last and take nothing for granted. always learn from your mistakes, always live for today and hope that you get to see another day. Live, love, laugh my motto!

3.

First off, I love love love Marilyn Monroe in my opinion she was beautiful and I loved her confidence. I have so many shirts with her face on it literally I love her, (I’m not a stalker) I promise lol but this quote is so true it’s like take me as I am or don’t take me at all so many times people wanna try to change who you are to be who they want you to be and then we end up losing ourselves because we fall prey to what someone else thinks of us so this quote is so true and important, always be you and never change for anybody, either they take you for you (flaws and all) or serve them walking papers.

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I struggle with this sometimes because I truly do not like bully’s or mean people who treat others like crap for no reason, it’s just crazy to me that others think treating other people bad makes them look good and honestly I’ve dealt with things like this growing up in school and in the work place. I know we should walk away and take the high road but sometimes it’s hard for me to bite my tongue when someone is being rude for no reason, however I love this quote because it’s true we don’t have to stoop to their level at all. ( I will do a post soon on a story that matches this quote) so ignore those bullies and keep pushing.

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This quote is what I need to hear some days, especially when I’m struggling with my anxiety or dealing with something in my life, it really helps me to see that no matter what everything will end up being ok and that I have to have faith. so to anyone out there dealing with something or struggling, your not alone we can get through this because it will be ok.

Conclusion…

I hope you guys enjoyed some of my favorite quotes, I actually have more that I like and will do a part 2 to this really soon and also tell you my bullying story probably tomorrow or Monday at the latest. Hope you guys enjoyed your Saturday. I’m off to 😴 now. Braiding my hair most of the day has wore me out. Gotta get some beauty sleep 🛏.

Remember to always love YOU and put YOU first.

I wasn’t ease dropping on the conversation, however I was in a public bathroom and she basically put her business out there for the world sadly and now I’m sharing my thoughts and telling my own story in some way…

So, tonight I went out to eat with my family for my moms birthday weekend, it was a great dinner we had a great night but of course as were leaving we stop by the bathroom and I take my daughter in to change her that’s when I over heard a waitress on the phone with her boyfriend, everyone in the bathroom can hear her conversation she’s pleading and bagging her boyfriend not to leave her and to come get her from work and from her voice I can tell his telling her no witch isn’t what she wanted to hear, so she continues talking to him telling him she won’t do something again and a bunch of other things (it’s raining outside) so she was also asking him to bring her the car he was clearly saying no, finally her boss comes to the bathroom and tells her she needs to come back and finish waiting on tables then she proceeds to tell her boyfriend “I’m going to lose my job” before walking out finally.

This is why I always say self love is so so important even when your in a relationship because in order to love someone you must love yourself first always and I remember in past relationships not having that for myself so I put up with way more then I should have. It was very clear to me that this girl didn’t seem to have to much love for herself as she’s on the phone bagging her boyfriend and crying on the phone in a bathroom stall it Made me think how many women even some men deal with issues and put up with things like this because sometimes they feel that no one else will love them or that’s the only person they can get or they settle because of fear of moving on.

This post isn’t just about that waitress or her story that she honestly should of kept separate from her job but it’s for anyone out there who has ever been in situations like this and who have felt like they weren’t good enough. You have to realize sometimes we get in this situations because people portray to be one way and then once you get to know them better it’s a whole different story. When I was in my abusive relationship,I thought he was great in the beginning until I really got to know him and see that he wasn’t a good person he grew up in single parent home no father present and his mom did the best she could yes in some aspect I think that effected him a lot as he got older.( yes I also know not all people from single parent homes exhibit bad behaviors) truth is growing up I was a Hugh daddy’s girls I did everything with my dad he was the man I most admired but as i grew into a teenager our closeness kind of faded away and I sometimes feel that’s the reason I dated all the wrong guys

Also I’m not blaming everything on my dad part of this was ME too (we have a great relationship now)

I remember not having self love and it caused a lot of heartache for me in the long run. I wanna really say make sure you pick the right partner don’t get into a relationship because your lonely or because you think his a good guy but then he or she turns out not to be at all. Once you get that self love you won’t allow anyone to ever hurt you because you will love yourself enough to never accept anyone not loving you the right way. I know it’s hard because it took me years to love myself and I mean years and sometimes when it comes to my weight I still struggle with the self love part a little only because I’m always thinking I could be smaller but that’s a whole other story however when I met my current boyfriend he really taught me how a women should be treated he never calls me out my name, never disrespects me, we don’t argue and he loves me for me, well take that back we may have disagreements here and there but it dosent involve yelling and cursing each other out. It’s like you agree to disagree. (Kind of like the sky is blue nope it’s green) type of disagreements.

So, never settle, never love anyone before you (accept your children of course) never let someone make you feel like it’s your fault or belittle you and treat you less then what you are worth because somewhere out there someone is out there who is willing to love you for who you are and love you right. Some days i still look in the mirror and realize how far I’ve come from my past and how better I’ve gotten at loving me and the people around me and not settling because I’m worth being treated good.

Never beg someone to be in your life once they leave let them go because that chapter has ended and a new one will began and it will have a great ending..

Learn to love you and learn to take care of you first always and I pray and hope that waitress tonight finds that self love and makes better choices when it comes to dating because I’m sure she deserve the world but can’t see that yet but I’m sure one day she will.

Self love is the best kind of love as I always say ❤️

Finding motivation, accomplishing your goals and Doing what makes you happy

I’m always writing long post so this time, I wanted to switch it up a little and do something different by making a video instead, lately I’ve been stuck on being more motivated and trying to pursue other things in my life that are important to me and I wanna do so much more in my life. I literally get sad sometimes when I feel like I haven’t done enough it’s a lot of goals I wanna meet and I’m always putting that pressure on myself to do it all knowing I’m only one person and I can’t do it all unfortunately.

I know this is all a process and I know sometimes we set goals for ourselves that take more time then what we expect but I know I have to keep staying motivated and believe that I can accomplish anything I’ve set my mind too, so again this video/ post is about motivating yourself and accomplishing your goals always no matter what, so guys stay motivated and keep pushing because anything you wanna achieve or do in life is always possible.

This will probably be one of the many moments that I won’t write a long post instead I’ll let the video speak for me. Enjoy your Tuesday night we’re so close to Friday two more days we can do it.

Ps: sorry I looked rough it was one of those days, plus I hadn’t not too long got home so ignore the plain jane look. I’ll do better next time!

Happy Sunday!

Sunday’s are one of my favorite days not just because it’s a day spent with relaxation and winding down, its also a day spent where I reflect on my weekend and prepare for the next week ahead, I think god for waking me up to see another day, I usually turn on the tv to watch Joel osteen his my favorite person to watch on Sunday’s he gives the best word not only that but sometimes I attend church as well and surround myself with positivity and people who spread happiness. I know every one isn’t religious and that’s ok everyone looks at Sunday’s different so wherever you are and how you choose to celebrate enjoy your Sunday and be thankful for another day of this beautiful life.

Happy Sunday!!!