weight loss/Healthy food choices

Healthy Foods|Favorite recipes.

So, I been on my diet for a week now and I’m enjoying eating healthier and trying to do better all around on this new lifestyle change as I like to call it. I been trying a lot of new foods and great recipes on the “spark people” app so please go check it out. I love this app! It’s helped me out a lot with staying on track. So I’m going to share some of my favorite recipes from the app that I love.

Last nights dinner(Friday):

I made a chicken dish and it was so good, I actually made too much so now leftovers are in the fridge but that’s ok more for me. So for this dish you will need:

1. Flat chicken breast, I used boneless chicken thighs instead.

2.squash, zucchini, potatoes and onions.

3. Add thyme, salt and pepper and a little olive oil.

4. I used a glass dish you can use a foil pan as well.

So I took my glass pan and washed and cleaned the chicken placing it on a separate plate until the veggies were all cut up then, I proceeded to cut up all the veggies and place it into my baking dish I made sure to carefully add the seasonings and then I grabbed my chicken and placed it in the pan adding salt and pepper I added a drop of water to the pan and placed it in the oven on 350. The recipe calls for it to be on 450 but I chose to do 350 and it came out fine. It cooked for an hour covered then I uncovered it and let it cook for 20-25 minutes, took it out of the oven and guys the chicken was so moist and smelled great also my veggies were soft and so good. I loved this dish my mom even ate some with me and though it was good, I gave my daughter some of the chicken too so it all worked out but yes guys this food is so great and it definitely works for anyone trying to lose weight.

Pasta dish (from two days ago)

Ok so this next dish was a meal made two days ago for my dinner, it was so good and it’s light and healthy ok so for this dish you will need:

1.Wheat pasta- it’s better for you then regular pasta also multi grain pasta is great too(I used rotini pasta)

2. I also used tomatoes, carrots and shredded cheese, broccoli and Italian dressing.

Ok guys so of course the first thing I did was boil my pasta and while my pasta was boiling I cut up my tomatoes and carrots and broccoli so when the pasta was done I placed it onto a plate and then proceeded to add the vegetables in, I took my cheese grater and grated the cheese into it as well now some people may not want to eat the pasta like this so you can also keep it in the fridge overnight and then eat it cold as well it’s really up to you. I ate mine without refrigerating and it was still good but next time I’ll do it cold. I used wish bone Italian dressing on it to give it more flavor it doesn’t matter what brand you use whatever you like or what works for you. It was a great dish and healthy also you can add meat in it for my flavor or protein. I choose not too because it was good without it to me.

Breakfast this morning(Saturday):

Ok so this morning I had a great scrambled egg recipe so crazy my dad use to make my eggs this way when I was little and I haven’t done it that way in a long time so for this recipe you need 4 eggs I only used 3 but you take your eggs and you break them in a bowl then you add 1% milk or you can also use almond milk whatever you choose then you add salt/pepper and parsley to the bowl and mix it all together with a spoon or fork, I always use a fork. You also will need a non stick pan and you can add cooking spray so it won’t stick the recipe calls for the stove to be on 6 but I put it on 3 so I added my eggs and then I used a spatula to move them around then I let them sit for a few minutes before moving them around again these eggs don’t take that long and the goal is to have them soft and fluffy so basically this was a quick dish and then i made turkey bacon to go with it. I made some coffee in my Keurig so that was good too.

So I will continue to keep you all updated on my food and weight loss journey also I’ll be doing a post on Monday about an update on “life” and where I’m at with all that. I’ll be doing a weight in on Monday so I’ll share my weight loss so far. Keeping my 🀞 crossed guys. Enjoy your weekend!

Ps: I’m sorry my punctuation sucked in this blog post it’s called rush writing. Oops!

https://www.sparkpeople.com

Great app for weight loss/recipes.

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weight loss/Healthy food choices

Healthy eating|Back on track.

Ok, so today was my first day back on my diet or shall I say lifestyle change and so far so Good. I’ve stuck to my meal plan all day and haven’t ate anything bad. I was even tempted by cupcakes at work but turned them down and honestly haven’t even really been that hungry today for some reason. I been drinking plenty of water and staying hydrated and busy running around like always. I”ll tell you some of the foods I’ve eaten today and also share this cute recipe I’ve gotten off the new app I’m using to help with my weight loss.

Breakfast-

My meal plan called for me to eat cereal and skim milk but woke up late and was running behind schedule for work so instead I grabbed a mini bagel and ran out the door. My meal plan actually calls for me to eat some carbs and I won’t lie I love bread 😍 but I refuse to eat it all the time it’s not good for you. Bagels are ok eating them plain is best unless you wanna put butter and I suggest using a low fat butter or cream cheese for those that don’t like butter I’m the one over here like yuck because I’m not a fan of cream cheese but to each it’s own.

Lunch..

Another crazy thing happened, I rushed packed a lunch this morning and I didn’t like it so needless to say the only thing I ate was the fruit cup I packed so in the end, I came home and ate a late lunch I had chicken with mix veggies kinda light yet simple. I’m still working on my water intake I been drinking it more but I still feel like I need to up my intake. It will all happen in due time.

Dinner..

My dinner consisted of turkey pork chops yes they make TURKEY pork chops and it’s actually way better/healthier for you. They taste really good baked and fried but of course no more fried food for me so I baked them and then I had greens to go with them and a sweet potato so yes it was yummy, well kind of lol! I mean my body has to adjust to going back to healthy eating but it’s worth it.

Snack-

My snacks today were almonds and pretzels those are also on my meal plan, I never really liked almonds I’m usually eating cashews that’s my favorite but I got a big bag of almonds at Walmart the other day and so now I’m eating almonds and pretzels so it’s good so far also I had a pear a few minutes ago so yeah I haven’t really been super hungry but I’m trying my best to eat all my meals. I’ll probably drink another bottle of water then head to bed soon.

Wanted to share my lunch I made for tomorrow..

Yes I’m excited lol so on the app I’m using they have a selection of recipes you can make/eat so I’m scrolling through the lunch menu section and this chicken salad catches my eye so I wrote down the recipe items and head to my kitchen.

In no way am I trying to take credit for this recipe FYI and I will be putting the link to the website in this post, I actually forgot to do it in my last post sorry!! So if you wanna go check this app out or site out go do it, it’s helpful.

So back to what we were talking about so these are the only items you need to make this.

1.chicken, 2.onions, 3.celery, 4. Light mayo, 5. Pepper, 6. Salt, 7. Lemon juice.

I grabbed a small bowl I cut some chicken up (my chicken was pre cooked) and I added some mayo also (the original recipe called for yogurt but I replaced it with mayo) you stir the mayo into the chicken basically put as much as you like( I don’t like a lot of mayo) so after that I added some onions and celery. Grabbed my lemon juice and put 1/2 in the bowl then added a dash of salt/pepper and wallah you have your simple chicken salad.

Also I’m having yogurt and almonds with my lunch tomorrow.

So today was actually a good day guys I’m trying and as always I’ll keep you updated on my progress so one day down and a lot more to go but it can be done so when you feel like giving up DON’T keep pushing because the end results are worth it. Off to bed for me gotta be up again at 5:30 😦 good night!

https://www.sparkpeople.com

Check them out!

weight loss/Healthy food choices

Weight loss update..

I honestly feel embarrassed even writing about this πŸ€¦β€β™€οΈ it’s crazy to think that things were going so good, my weight was in a good place and I was happy. I think my depression has played a major part in where I am now unfortunately. Food has won and my self control has lost 😐

Where I’m at..

This week has been a world win and I’ve been eating bad unfortunately but I have decided to go back on the meal plan my nutritionist has given me and I’m excited to move forward starting Monday also with the help of my mom who is going to be dieting again with me. Honestly she always does better then me she’s more dedicated, food and I have always had a rocky relationships their are times when I’m eating good and other times where food is really not my best friend. I do always accept responsibility for any mistakes I make or bad decisions that may occur in my life. I’m trying my best to get out of the space I’m in right now and trying my best to slip out of the depression and get back on track.

What’s next for me..

The only thing at this point that can be done is me striving to do my best again. I’m going to regain my strength and regain my power back and get my life back the way it was before everything went left. I’m actually proud of myself though since I’ve gone grocery shopping today and rid my refrigerator of all the bad foods so I’m excited about going back to healthy eating also I’m going to be back in the gym next week and I’m thinking about getting a trainer for the extra help. I downloaded a new app on my phone to help with my eating as well ,I’ll put the link at the end of the post but so far I like it a lot it actually will generate and make your meal plans for you also it’s great because you can blog post your journey on it and post pictures and talk to people from all over the world who are trying to lose weight so that’s great motivation.

Conclusion..

I’m definitely going to do more post to keep you updated on my weight loss journey and to kind of document it for you guys. I’m going to share the foods I’m eating and the exercises that I’m doing and different recipes. This is a little off topic but after having my daughter I was 145 pounds and I remember losing weight and getting down to 133 or so and I was happy and then the weight came back after a while and I lost it again and of course now it’s back again to 139 and I was 133/134 last. I know to most reading this your going to be like stop bitching that’s nothing just a couple of pounds but to me it’s a lot I’m really insecure about my body a lot and In the past it has lead me to starving myself and not treating my body good. It’s really about a lifestyle change and being healthy for not only me but for my daughter.

More talk..

Again I also wanna apologize for my bad blog posting lately funny thing is I wrote part of this post four days ago and then saved it as a draft and never got back to writing more on it until today. I’m trying guys I’m trying again my mind is still all over the place and I’m trying my best to come back to being myself but I will try my hardest to blog more.

Enjoy your Saturday and relax because Monday is coming soon. Thanks for reading my crazy rant. It’s time to get back to relaxing.

relationships

Does age really matter|when dating|in relationships!

FYI I’m not promoting someone who is super old to date someone 17 or under/ or the other way around, just wanted to put that out there when it comes to this topic I would never promote that.

I been thinking about this post for two days now and I keep posing the question in my mind, I hear it constantly being talked about online also in person and it makes me wonder does age really matter at all?

My Story:

In my early 20’s I dated a guy who was 30 and it never really bothered me, he saw me as his equal and I didn’t treat him like he was older, we had a some what of a great relationship but every couple has it’s ups and downs. I did realize some people were like your really dating someone that old or she’s so young but it never really bothered us and I remembered my grandma telling me she was happy for me but again that relationship didn’t last for other reasons but the age never really bothered me.

Fast forward:

My boyfriend and I now are two years apart, I feel so old don’t even wanna reveal my age but what the hell who cares right? So anyway when we met he was 26 and I was 28 well fast forward I’m a year older now and his 27 the point is age should not matter his not immature I’m not strict or trying to be his mother because I’m older we really mesh together he gets me and I get him, his my best friend and the best thing that’s ever happened to me age doesn’t matter when you love someone so why do people make such a big deal about it?

Let’s get down to the bottom..

People really need to let others be happy, worry about yourself and not other people. stop preaching and telling people how they should live their life or what they should be doing. Age doesn’t matter it’s what in that persons heart and think about it this way, someone could be the same age as you and still be immature someone who is older could still be immature it’s really no way of telling but it’s whoever your compatible with and when looking to date age shouldn’t effect how you feel for a person. Going back to favorite motto “if you have nothing nice to say, say nothing at all” choose happiness and let others be happy as well.

Final words..

I feel like society puts so much pressure on the world when it comes to certain things and it’s sad that we fall prey to what society thinks about us or how we should be when it’s not even necessary to be that way, Life is short so Do whatever makes you happy and don’t worry about what others are going to say or think. Age is a number it does not matter and we should all be happy and love hard. So to anyone out there who is dating someone older or younger don’t listen to outside voices do what makes you happy and live your life.

I’m sorry this is so short, I’m kind of taking a mini blog break again gotta hit the reset button so me not blogging as much means I’m taking a mini break but I’ll still try to blog in between. Sometimes I value my “me time” nothing against anyone Just need time to clear my head. Enjoy your Wednesday night I’m off to relax then off To bed πŸ™‚

mental health

This truly makes me sad..

I try to always keep a level head, I try to see everyone’s point of view and I try not to do the whole back and fourth arguing with people because it gets us no where. It truly saddens me and breaks my heart to see people with mental illnesses shaming other people who have mental illnesses like what the hell? How dare someone who suffers shame another person dealing with the same thing. You cannot tell someone else’s story when your not in that persons shoes.

People always say to me “oh you look so happy”, “your always so pulled together” or “are you ever sad” the truth is so much goes through my head daily I’m happy some days other days I’m depressed and my anxiety is all over the place but whenever I’m around people they would never know because I’m so good at covering it up and not letting anyone know I’m broken. People have to realize you can be happy or come off happy to others and still not be ok. Last weekend, I was with my boyfriend and I was telling him a story on how I was driving and I had this image of a cliff and I was falling off the cliff and my (child’s father) was on the top and he was holding on to my hand and I was so miserable and wanted to get away from him in my mind, I wanted him to let me fall. The whole time I’m telling my boyfriend this story he was in shock he couldn’t believe that my mind went to that place. Certain things/people can trigger my anxiety so bad and those are the people I cannot be around.

I was on twitter last night and someone who suffered from depression stated that a friend saw them out and said “you don’t look depressed to me” then it started the question in the comments “what does depression, look like?” The answer to that is clear, depression doesn’t have a look to it someone can be so happy and still be miserable at the same time. It’s not nice or kind to try to diagnose someone or tell them what they have or don’t have you may not understand what that person is going through but it doesn’t give you the right to judge them or make them feel even worse about it. Treat others the way you want someone to treat you.

I feel like some people get picked on over and over for things they have done or not done and it’s not ok, you have to realize someone with a mental illness does not have the same mind set as someone who doesn’t so to those who don’t get it at all, I suggest you educate yourself or start off by asking questions before you jump to conclusions or start diagnosing someone. Everyone’s mind is different and everyone thinks differently but it doesn’t make them not human we all bleed the same, we all feel the same pain we’re a lot more alike then different in some ways. I also will say please don’t jump on the bandwagon, I hate when I read a comment that’s negative online and then a bunch of other people will comment negativity and in my mind, I’m like aren’t you the same person who wrote something positive a minute ago like please have a mind of your own is all I’m saying even if it means standing alone. “If you don’t stand for something you will fall for anything” great quote by Alexander Hamilton and it speaks volumes especially for the society we live in today.

I speak on mental illness so much now since starting this blog, because I’m realizing how important it is and that everyone needs a voice to be heard, it was always important to me but I never really had a platform to speak about it on and now with my blogging, I can use my voice and stand for what I believe in. My biggest thing is more people should be educated on it so when situations arise they know how to handle them or they aren’t mis informed. I see so much bullying when it comes to these type of stigmas and it’s sad because we should be coming together not being against one another. I wanna continue to use my voice and speak on my experiences and hopefully it will help others.

It’s Sunday it’s relaxation day so I won’t keep going on with my rant but I’m sure you get the point so display some love today and relax before work Monday. I’m off to the store with my daughter now ✌️😊

Halloween

My favorite Halloween movies πŸŽ₯

Ok, so Halloween is right around the corner so why not share some of my favorite movies to watch every year around this time. What is everyone going to be for Halloween? Your never too old to dress up(my opinion) I still have to get my daughter a costume, so will see how it goes also I’m not thrilled that it’s on a Wednesday either, can it fall on a Friday next year? Just saying πŸ€·β€β™€οΈenough of my little rant let’s gets started.

1. Michel Myers- Halloween

This has to be number one, like come on this movie has been around since, I was a kid and it’s gotten even popular since then,for one I’m petrified of this man like I would hate to be in his hometown on Halloween, you definitely gotta watch your back the whole time. I use to love Jaime Lee Curtis in all those movies she played his sister so well, I was sad when he killed her though. I have to get around to watching it this month maybe this weekend it will happen for me. (There’s a new Halloween in theaters now so go see it)

2. Child’s play-chucky

Not even going to lie typing this makes me cringe, I’ve always been scared of chucky that doll was so powerful and scary at the same time, poor Andy went through a lot dealing with him. I couldn’t do it, my nerves would of been so bad. I can’t get my daughter a doll like that, she’s already in love with Elmo so we will leave it there no need to recruit chucky right now. I’ve watched all his movies but the last one I saw on Netflix wasn’t that good, they tried but it missed the bar at least for me. If you wanna check it out look on Netflix.

3. Scream-

This movie is another favorite, I even see kids wearing costumes like it on Halloween, I loved nev Campbell in these movies she was so pretty and innocent. I also loved how it was about them being in high school and being young and learning. I would of be scared to death though knowing a killer would have been at my high school, it would of been a lot of sick days for me but anyway this a great movie, I’m sure most people have seen it but if not go watch!

4.hocus pocus-

Yes yes, I remember watching this movie as a kid it was so good and I was literally glued to the tv, this movie is also child friendly, I can’t wait till my daughter ask me to watch this movie it’s a classic for sure, also I’m scared of witches now lol but this is a great movie so watch with your kids and you it can turn in to a family fun night for everybody.

5.Casper-

Who can forget Casper the friendly ghost omg adorable another movie, I watched growing up it was my favorite. Then you get to see kids running around in sheets pretending to be ghost πŸ‘» who can not find that adorable, again this is another movie, I can’t wait to watch with my daughter she’s going to laugh I’m sure and ask a bunch of questions but it’s still going to be cute. So watch this movie with your family it will be great.

I have to do a part two as always before the month is over. So many other great movies! Hope everyone is enjoying this beautiful Saturday even though it’s a little chilly, fall is officially here time for mittens and hats and lots of hot chocolate.

anxiety

Stress|what helps me?

In life we all go through things weather it be in our personal life or professional life,we all deal with things and sometimes, we don’t always know how to handle our problems or even what to do when things in our lives get to be too much. I though it would be great to talk about it and also share some of my tips on how, I deal with stressful situations.

Anxiety..

It’s no secret that anxiety plays a big part in my life and it can definitely make stressful situations worse at times but, I will never shy away from this topic because it’s all about helping others and I want anyone out there who is suffering to know it does get better and you are not alone. My anxiety lately has been pretty good honestly and it’s been great for me and I’m learning still everyday how to deal with stressful situations, although it’s hard sometimes but as alway I’ll never give up ever.

Tips that help stress(what helps me)

Remember everyone handles stress differently so what works for me may not work for you.

Let’s get started..

1.spending time with my daughter-

this is one of the biggest things to help me, my daughter is my world and I love coming home to spend time with her and play in her room or eating ice cream this is definitely a good stress reliever, she always takes my mind off anything going on around me everyday and she makes me feel better when she gives me kisses and hugs,she will take her little hand and pat me on the back it’s cute πŸ™‚

2. Going out of town-

As you know my boyfriend lives two hours away, so I don’t get to see him as often as we both would like but whenever,I do go out of town to see him it helps me a lot because getting away from my home town is much needed sometimes, like when I had my recent situation with my child’s father unfortunately, it helped me a lot going to see my boyfriend and talking about it with him while he held me and listen to me vent for hours, he definitely loves me he has too, i talk his head off every chance I get. It’s funny because his very private and quiet and laid back and I’m the complete opposite but he evens me out( sorry for going off topic) you get the point.

3.watching my favorite show-

I love tv, I’m always glued to the television after a long day of work, usually watching cartoons with my daughter or watching something that I like, when I get off at 5 I always tune in to judge Mathis, I love court shows and I love seeing how the cases turn out, theirs also this new show on fox called “Rel” I watch and it’s really good and funny also,I like that new show on CBS called “neighbors” don’t quote me on it because the title is probably wrong but it has Cedric the entertainer in it, it’s very funny and of course I like a few reality tv shows or I’ll watch something on YouTube, Netflix or Hulu.

4.Reading a book/writing novels-

I love love to read like my name should be attached to Barnes and noble because I’m always there reading and I love the way the coffee smell hits me soon as the door opens, I could live in a bookstore literally. I read all kinds of books ranging from romance, to mystery to non fiction or fiction really whatever catches my eye. I also love to write novels ,so I have a bunch of stories I’ve written on my lap top and I have only let one person read them. it’s crazy but I’m funny about who reads my work, I don’t wanna jinx my work plus I have to make sure it’s good before anyone else can read it. Reading is always good for the soul it relaxes you and you get to zone out for a while.

5.taking my anxiety meds-

Let’s be clear these are only taken on a day where,I literally cannot handle anything and I have to be able to control myself or my thoughts so, I grab my pills and relax usually my medicine stays in my purse because, it’s always good to stay prepared I never wanna be away from home with no medicine, so I always make it a point to keep it on me at all times. yes they relax me and help me sleep, I remember the last time taking them my mom pointed out how calm and relaxed it made me, also she said I’m nicer so what does that tell you? But at the same token, I try not to take them everyday because I wanna try to see how my body will react without them but of course most of the time something will happen and then it’s all down hill from there but, yes the goal my doctor always tells me is to have me anxiety free but it’s been years of me dealing with it, so not really sure anything will change but I’m going to stay positive because you never know what can happen.

6. Not letting all the stress over power me-

It’s nothing much we can do when super stressed because we tell ourselves not to think about it but then then we still do it anyway, so the best/last tip I can give you is to let go and let god because it’s not much else you can do, but eventually things will get better in your life, so try not to let it effect you to the point of being depressed or not living your life because no matter what happens in life the world will always keep moving no matter what we have going on,so the best thing you can do is stay positive and count your blessings because it could be worse ,so to anyone out there dealing with stress it will get better I’m speaking it into existence for you, try meditating, yoga, going out with friends, prayer, or whatever works to distract you. You can do it guys I’m rooting for you!

Don’t let stress have you, beat stress up with a smile and positive energy.

Lifestyle

Women to women|Coming together.

It’s crazy because, I originally was going to do another post but instead I ended up picking this topic because day in and day out, I see so much bickering between women and it’s sad that as women we tend to pit ourselves against each other or down one another. we’re our own worse enemy and can’t even see it, it’s bad enough some(keyword some because not all men do this) men put us down but then we turn around and do it to ourselves and I can’t seem to understand why? I’ve watched another women go to another women’s page just to comment on a picture they didn’t like or to tear that women down for no reason at all, how do you sleep at night? And then the main ones that get me are the ones that put “child of god” in their bio like please that has to be a sick joke you cannot call yourself such a thing mean while your putting someone else down or name calling someone and I agree everyone has the right to their own opinion but there’s a difference, when it’s coming from a good place or when your just being plain nasty for no reason.

My experience..

I’ve never really fit into the in crowd, I’ve never been miss popularity but at the same time I’ve never felt the need to be anyone but me, I was bullied all through school by the mean girls as we call them. I never understood why someone can be so cruel, I was name called and told I was ugly, fat, and stupid by girls who didn’t even know me and their words started to eat at me as I got older and I started to believe it to a certain extent witch lead me down a path of destruction, starving myself, going days with no food and exercising constantly, hating the person behind the mirror. It’s weird to say those same girls now are fake friendly whenever they see me out but of course I never forget, my cousins ex also use to bully me in school and then turned around and tried to be nice to me because she was dating him. I can forgive a lot of things but trust me this girl will never forget.

The things I see.

I’m randomly on instagram today and as usual I’m scrolling down my time line and also looking at the search section where they show a bunch of pictures of celebrities, it saddens me to see so many women downing other women or saying ignorant things to be mean for no reason,like what is your motive? I honestly feel a lot of it is jealousy and the other part is women not liking who they are, self esteem is definitely a killer and will have you hating who you are, I’ve been there before. I will say this it’s no ones problem because you don’t like who you are and you should not treat others like shit because you don’t love yourself, it’s up to you to fix the broken pieces in you and get yourself together but don’t down another women or another person in general because you don’t like the shoes your in. I have to give tough love in this post for so many reasons because this is seen so much and it shouldn’t be.

Things to work on..

If you or anyone you know is that girl, I will say this it’s not too late to change who you are, and the next time you get online or even in person and see something you don’t like, keep scrolling it’s not hard, I do it all the time. I think as women we should always back each other the world we live in is already cold enough so why down one another. We have this new “me too” movement in place witch is suppose to be women empowerment yet still in some ways we have a long way to go as far as coming together but that’s a whole other topic. I truly encourage you to love on one another and treat each other the way you want to be treated stop putting others down and love yourself and the next time you think about saying something mean turn it into a positive.

Conclusion..

We have to stick together and show love each time we get a chance, so women even men let’s rise above the drama and be better than ever. I challenge you to go out today/tomorrow and say something nice to someone you love.

Lifestyle

Eating habits..

I’m always trying to eat healthy and put the right foods in my body but sometimes, I do have my cheat days and slips ups here and there, I will say my body feels better since I’ve stopped eating beef/pork but now I’m questioning should I cut meat out all together? I’m glad to say my family is actually on board with my new eating habits, they have been eating some of the same foods I’ve been eating or they will cook something separate for me.

This weekend, I went out of town. I’m visiting with my boyfriend and honestly we ate a lot of fast food yuck 🀒 so my boyfriend lives alone so of course he doesn’t cook a lot he usually eats out more unless I go with him to the store. So we ate at this Japanese restaurant and honestly I felt so sick eating the chicken I’m not sure why but it made me want to vomit literally and in that moment all I could think was “should I stop eating meat” it was gross to be honest. Then I asked my boyfriend what would you think if I went vegetarian he smiled of course and said he wouldn’t care but I don’t know guys and of course I get home and my mom has baked chicken for me of course I wanted to scream lol because I’m like no more chicken.

I proceed to try her food and my stomach was fine (nope I’m not pregnant) just putting that out there. I don’t know it was weird and then to top it off I had a bad dream last night and in the dream my doctor is telling me to stop eating meat so crazy I know literally so yes with that being said I’m not sure if this is a sign or what but I’m definitely a believer in signs. I’m not sure what to do next at all but, I do know I will continue on eating the way I am for now until I decide on going vegetarian/vegan.

On that note..

Lately I’ve been eating some good food, so I will tell you some of the foods I’ve eaten and liked also trying to keep this short and simple plus sweet lol.

1.cheese πŸ•

Ok so I never have liked cheese pizza I’m always use to eating supreme or pepperoni and sausage well the other week they catered to my Job and I tried it and it was so good guys like melted in my mouth good and I can’t wait to try cheese pizza again, it was actually better with no meat.

2.Bread 🍞

So I know bread is fattening but I absolutely love it so much with a dab of fat free butter its so yummy, my dad buys red lobster biscuits and makes them at home sooo good.

3. Mixed 🌽

Let me tell you guys mixed vegetables is becoming my new thing to eat it’s so good to me I love when it’s mixed with broccoli, zucchini, squash, potatoes and carrots, it’s so so good guys. I’m telling you!

4. Mixed πŸ‰

So for the last couple of days I been making fruit bowls every night before bed, last night I made a bowl of strawberries, berries, and grapes it was so good I even made one for my mom and daughter she loves grapes that’s one of the many fruits that I can actually get her to eat.

Conclusion..

I’m weird when it comes to food and picky sometimes so this process will take some time but for now I’m going to continue to be happy with my eating habits until I decide what’s next for me.

Thanks for listening to my crazy rant about food guys. I’m about to get off work and enjoy the rest of my Monday πŸ™‚

relationships

Bad relationships/why do we stay?

The reason I’m making this blog post is because we all have that one friend or family member who has been with the wrong guy or girl and we continue to tell them over and over it’s not going to work but to them we sound crazy and should mind our business, well today at work we had girl talk and of course the topic of discussion was relationships and how we feel about certain things that men/women tend to do and why do we stay sometimes even when we’re miserable.

Let’s get started..

So one of my co workers is currently dealing with a relationship dilemma,she’s not sure weather she should leave her relationship or stay. she’s not happy but doesn’t want to leave him “when his down” as she says and honestly I think a lot of women feel this way, I know I’ve stayed in many bad relationships because, I thought I loved that person and I thought things Would work out but it didn’t and it left me stuck and full of emotions and trying to figure out how to deal with them. So then poses the question is love really enough? Honestly in my opinion it’s not you can love the hell out of someone but love is not going to keep me there especially when I’m miserable and unhappy. I’ve learned that I have to love me first and do what makes me happy.

Let’s dig deeper..

In all my past relationships I wasn’t happy with myself and it caused me to cling to the wrong type of men,in my mind they loved me but it wasn’t love at all it was me being stuck in bad situations and thinking it was enough when clearly it wasn’t, I was always finding myself pondering back and fourth trying to please others over myself and no matter how many times i got hurt it never stopped me from giving love a try again even though in my mind it was clear what the outcome would be, my heart indured so much pain and it cause me more heartache then anything and it honestly wasn’t worth it in the end. I will also add this if you feel like you have to cheat on your partner because they are not giving you attention or you are that miserable being with them, my biggest suggestion is move on and leave them don’t hurt that person because you are hurting that’s make no sense to me at all and I seen it happen to many time with friends or people I know so leave the situation don’t make things even worse.

When do we start to love us enough..

It really breaks my heart to see women even men with the wrong person and watch them waste their time so many times over and over and at some point we have to have that self love for ourselves because when we don’t it turns in to us picking the wrong person to be with, I’m always challenging people around me to stay single and focus on themselves until they really know what they want and can find self love first before beginning to love another person. In the end it causes a lot of unresolved problems and causes us to resent that person even though we had a choice to leave or stay. I watch my co worker talk daily about her relationship and anything you say to her she gets mad because she has talked herself into being happy when in reality she’s not she vents and complains to us daily and we give her advice but she never takes it and in no way shape or form am I degrading her or trying to make her look like a bad person because trust me I’ve been that girl before in relationships I more so wanted to use her story as an example to help others because we have all been there at one point in time.

Conclusion..

At the end of the day I hate to say it but we only have ourselves to blame when we choose to be in bad relationships with the wrong person because the door is always open but we chose to leave it closed. I hope that this helps someone out there know that you are loved and the right person is coming to you so be patient and keep being you also don’t jump too quick into relationships without knowing more about the person and always always make sure to love you first. I’m rooting for each and every one of you and I know things will be ok. Stay positive my sweeties.

I have to get back to work now we’re starting to get busy ✌️