I’m back!!

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It feels good to be back, I know I’ve been gone for a while the last post I did was on Christmas Eve like I’m the worse, I already know. I’m going to dedicate myself more to my blog, I’m going to be posting every Saturday/Sunday starting this week. Those are the best days for me, I’m going to start this blogging thing off right and be more dedicated to keeping up and letting you guys know what’s going on with me more.

So basically I’m going to catch you up on where I’ve been and what’s been going on since the last post. So hang in here with me guys because it’s about to get long winded lol jk or am I? 🤷‍♀️ so let’s get started.

Anxiety update:

My anxiety has been so good and I’m happy to say, I haven’t been depressed or sad in a while and that’s a good feeling for me. I’ve been seeing my doctor on a regular basis and he has me on my anxiety meds witch are working amazing , he even up my dosage at our last visit and it’s been going well so far, the only side effect I’m not liking too much is the drowsiness and feeling sleepy but other then that the medicine is perfect, I’m learning I’m one of those people that needs meds to function and I’ve accepted that and I’m not ashamed I’m actually proud to admit I’m far from perfect. I would rather be safe then sorry. I’ve been trying to stay up beat and positive about anything and keep the negative out my circle and away from me. I’ll definitely keep you updated on my anxiety.

Relationship:

I was so happy to celebrate my one year anniversary with my wonderful boyfriend on the 6th of January, it’s been an amazing year, his been an amazing guy and he treats my daughter so well so, I couldn’t ask for a better man to be in my life this is the happiest I’ve ever been with someone and I’m glad we met each other when we did. It’s nothing like good timing to help you meet the right person when you lease expect it. I also wanna do a blog post this up coming weekend on relationships. I’m going to do more post on relationships in the upcoming future.

My diet:

I don’t even wanna deal with this lol but geez I gotta get back on track I’ve gained a few pounds back unfortunately, so can’t say I’ve been on track but I do plan on starting the keto diet next week with my mom so, I will let you guys know how that works. It’s so hard to stick to this diet thing, I do so well for a month or two then I slip up again and it’s disappointing but I’m human and I’m going to keep pushing and love the skin I’m in. I’m going to get healthy this year and do what’s best for me on my terms and my standards not what everyone else wants me to do. I will keep you guys updated on this aspect of my life as well let’s keep those fingers crossed 🤞

What you can expect:

So with it being a new year, I really wanna blog more about different things, I don’t wanna stick to always talking about my anxiety or dieting so my next steps is to talk more about hair, makeup, relationships, and all other things and I’ll even post videos on here as well. I’m going to kick this blog up going forward and you can also expect a Q&A from me soon as well. So guys, I hope you had an amazing new year and I hope you enjoy your week I’ll be posting again on Saturday so look out for it.

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Holiday weight gain😩|tips to get back on track.

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So,we have all been there,unfortunately where the holidays come and all of a sudden all that weight loss goes right out the window and bam you have gained all your weight back or at least some of it. I had a lovely thanksgiving with friends and family and a couple of days off work so that helped too but of course it’s back to work Monday and I’m dreading it?but I do have some good news, I’ll wait to share and again I’m sorry for being being M.I.A been so busy these days with so many things but I will get better in due time.

I wanna give you guys 5 tips on how to get back on track after the holidays so don’t feel discouraged guys because we all fall down but we can get back up. I only gained 3 pounds but still it feels like a lot in my eyes and I feel gross (being honest) but it will pass and I’ll be back on track starting tomorrow.

Let’s get started.

1. Clean all bad foods out of your home-

So this is a Hugh one because I won’t lie, I had so many bad foods in my house due to the holidays and I been eating and snacking like crazy and it’s like you get one cookie then you gotta grab another cookie 🤦‍♀️ I know I know but it happens so the best thing to do is clean out your house of all bad foods and start fresh with all healthy ones, it will make you feel 100% better and you won’t have to worry about snacking on anything bad.

2. Make sure your using your weight loss app to document foods/ Stay in calorie range-

I kinda got off track and stopped documenting what foods I’ve been eating since the holidays, so I’m not even sure if I was in calorie range or under or over, so yes I been eating and not having a clue what’s been going on and now I’m looking at my app and feel so so guilty but again like I said we are all allowed days to eat bad sometimes ,so yes it happens but I will definitely get back on track using my app and again guys go download this app it’s works www.sparkpeople.com

3. Have a great support system-

This is also really important guys, because when you fall off the wagon you need someone around you to pick you back up and support you no matter what and keep you motivated. my mom is that person for me she always diets with me and keeps pushing me to do better, even when I’m like no don’t wanna do it, like today she told me I looked skinny of course I’m like no mom ,no not this girl but it’s hearing those compliments that make me smile and feel better,like this can be done and I can reach my goal so remember kick those people to the curb when they doubt you or bring you down because you can do it.

4. Go to the gym/walk the neighborhood-

I haven’t been to the gym in so long ,won’t even lie but going back may not be a bad idea even if you don’t wanna go or can’t go take a walk around your neighbor hood ,your body will feel so much better and thank you in the long run a little exercise helps and it’s also good for clearing your mind and relieving stress. So I’m going to make it a daily goal again to try to go the gym at least once or twice a week to start off especially for the new year. (If it’s cold where you live wrap up please don’t want anyone getting a cold) take it one day at a time it’s no rush.

5. Drink plenty of water/have fun with your weight loss-

So please always remember to drink plenty of water and stay hydrated guys that’s important when trying to lose weight and our bodies need water and if your someone who is not a big fan of water you can use water enhancers to enhance the flavor in your water it’s 0% juice and it taste good and your water taste great too, I have two in my cabinet now. Check down the Juice isle in your local grocery store. Guys don’t allow your weight loss to take over your life, this should be something fun and enjoyable not something that makes you miserable or becomes and obsession, so make sure to take a few deep breaths and relax and again it’s ok to have a cheat day or two remember it’s all about your health and being healthy , it should be a fun lifestyle change not a miserable one.

Conclusion-

Losing weight is not always easy and has its ups and downs but it’s worth it, when trying to be healthy, so take your time with it and everything will be ok, I had a little set back but I’m going to keep pushing, damn these holidays lol jk but again hope everyone had a great thanksgiving and great time with family and I’m off to relax before bed. Don’t let the holidays get you down keep pushing, I believe in you. I’ll be back sooner than later ✌️

Weight loss update|Life!

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I’m so sorry guys, I know I was suppose to update a couple of days ago, well life caught me and I got busy 😩 but I’m back today. I have been working on my weight loss as you can tell by previous post and let’s just say it’s working so well I have to credit it to hard work but also www.sparkpeople.com yes this app has helped me so much with eating right and the recipes are great. So I started off at 139 and I’m now 133. (After I had my daughter I was 145 and then got in to the 130’s but gained my weight back) I was shocked when I stepped on the scale and seen that. I wanna keep going to get down to 122. I literally haven’t been that small since 2014 also guys make sure your doing it healthy don’t do anything crazy to lose weight. I literally eat 3 meals a day and when I do snack it’s always something healthy. I will keep you posted on more of my weight loss and also on once I hit my goal weight how I’ll maintain it. I haven’t been going to the gym as much either here lately so gotta get back on track with that.

Life..

Ok so my life has been pretty ok, I still feel sad sometimes and depressed here and there and my job tends to give me a hell of a lot of anxiety here lately so I’m still in the process of looking for another job trying to be positive about it all. Once I get my new insurance I’m also going to start back seeing my therapist so that should be interesting, the goal here is to not allow my anxiety to take over but it’s hard some days are better then others. I still have those moments where being alone is all I want to do. I get invited to so many events or places and turn them down because I’m so use to being alone and I’ve become such a loner to be honest so I’m working on getting out the house more and trying to be more social but sometimes it’s like no thanks I’ll stay home today. Well it’s Saturday so I’ll get out for a little while today I’m taking my daughter out for shopping to get her more clothes and I’m going to do some Christmas shopping (I know it’s early but I rather start now then late) I always do my shopping early.

I still wanna get away but where the hell would I go? I still wish starting over was an option well maybe it still is but geez do I really wanna move away and leave my friends and family behind? Sometimes I do and it’s nothing they did it’s mostly me. It’s like when you have it all it still doesn’t feel like enough or it feels like it should be different and then you think about all the people in the world who are worse off then you and it’s like I probably should stop complaining and suck it up. My mind is always wondering and going into so many different thoughts and scenarios. I’m the happiest when I’m around positivity and around a people who matter to me. “it will get better” my boyfriend says to me every day he says “your dream job will come” I wanna believe that, Hell I want to believe that my sadness will go away and that I will fulfill all the goals that I have too. Some times when I talk to people they say “oh so your just sad about your job” and I’m thinking no it’s way way deeper then that. I wish I could fully explain it but it’s hard to explain and I don’t like opening up to people who clearly will not understand what I’m going through or what I’m dealing with.

I won’t explain to you why I don’t show up for things or why I do some of the things that I do because in all honestly Half the time I’m still trying to figure it out myself. I’m honestly still a work in progress but anyway enough of my rambling and venting I gotta go get myself ready to head out soon so again I’ll be back soon with another post. (Not about my weight or anxiety) something different for a change.

Enjoy your weekend 🙂

Healthy Foods|Favorite recipes.

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So, I been on my diet for a week now and I’m enjoying eating healthier and trying to do better all around on this new lifestyle change as I like to call it. I been trying a lot of new foods and great recipes on the “spark people” app so please go check it out. I love this app! It’s helped me out a lot with staying on track. So I’m going to share some of my favorite recipes from the app that I love.

Last nights dinner(Friday):

I made a chicken dish and it was so good, I actually made too much so now leftovers are in the fridge but that’s ok more for me. So for this dish you will need:

1. Flat chicken breast, I used boneless chicken thighs instead.

2.squash, zucchini, potatoes and onions.

3. Add thyme, salt and pepper and a little olive oil.

4. I used a glass dish you can use a foil pan as well.

So I took my glass pan and washed and cleaned the chicken placing it on a separate plate until the veggies were all cut up then, I proceeded to cut up all the veggies and place it into my baking dish I made sure to carefully add the seasonings and then I grabbed my chicken and placed it in the pan adding salt and pepper I added a drop of water to the pan and placed it in the oven on 350. The recipe calls for it to be on 450 but I chose to do 350 and it came out fine. It cooked for an hour covered then I uncovered it and let it cook for 20-25 minutes, took it out of the oven and guys the chicken was so moist and smelled great also my veggies were soft and so good. I loved this dish my mom even ate some with me and though it was good, I gave my daughter some of the chicken too so it all worked out but yes guys this food is so great and it definitely works for anyone trying to lose weight.

Pasta dish (from two days ago)

Ok so this next dish was a meal made two days ago for my dinner, it was so good and it’s light and healthy ok so for this dish you will need:

1.Wheat pasta- it’s better for you then regular pasta also multi grain pasta is great too(I used rotini pasta)

2. I also used tomatoes, carrots and shredded cheese, broccoli and Italian dressing.

Ok guys so of course the first thing I did was boil my pasta and while my pasta was boiling I cut up my tomatoes and carrots and broccoli so when the pasta was done I placed it onto a plate and then proceeded to add the vegetables in, I took my cheese grater and grated the cheese into it as well now some people may not want to eat the pasta like this so you can also keep it in the fridge overnight and then eat it cold as well it’s really up to you. I ate mine without refrigerating and it was still good but next time I’ll do it cold. I used wish bone Italian dressing on it to give it more flavor it doesn’t matter what brand you use whatever you like or what works for you. It was a great dish and healthy also you can add meat in it for my flavor or protein. I choose not too because it was good without it to me.

Breakfast this morning(Saturday):

Ok so this morning I had a great scrambled egg recipe so crazy my dad use to make my eggs this way when I was little and I haven’t done it that way in a long time so for this recipe you need 4 eggs I only used 3 but you take your eggs and you break them in a bowl then you add 1% milk or you can also use almond milk whatever you choose then you add salt/pepper and parsley to the bowl and mix it all together with a spoon or fork, I always use a fork. You also will need a non stick pan and you can add cooking spray so it won’t stick the recipe calls for the stove to be on 6 but I put it on 3 so I added my eggs and then I used a spatula to move them around then I let them sit for a few minutes before moving them around again these eggs don’t take that long and the goal is to have them soft and fluffy so basically this was a quick dish and then i made turkey bacon to go with it. I made some coffee in my Keurig so that was good too.

So I will continue to keep you all updated on my food and weight loss journey also I’ll be doing a post on Monday about an update on “life” and where I’m at with all that. I’ll be doing a weight in on Monday so I’ll share my weight loss so far. Keeping my 🤞 crossed guys. Enjoy your weekend!

Ps: I’m sorry my punctuation sucked in this blog post it’s called rush writing. Oops!

https://www.sparkpeople.com

Great app for weight loss/recipes.

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Healthy eating|Back on track.

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Ok, so today was my first day back on my diet or shall I say lifestyle change and so far so Good. I’ve stuck to my meal plan all day and haven’t ate anything bad. I was even tempted by cupcakes at work but turned them down and honestly haven’t even really been that hungry today for some reason. I been drinking plenty of water and staying hydrated and busy running around like always. I”ll tell you some of the foods I’ve eaten today and also share this cute recipe I’ve gotten off the new app I’m using to help with my weight loss.

Breakfast-

My meal plan called for me to eat cereal and skim milk but woke up late and was running behind schedule for work so instead I grabbed a mini bagel and ran out the door. My meal plan actually calls for me to eat some carbs and I won’t lie I love bread 😍 but I refuse to eat it all the time it’s not good for you. Bagels are ok eating them plain is best unless you wanna put butter and I suggest using a low fat butter or cream cheese for those that don’t like butter I’m the one over here like yuck because I’m not a fan of cream cheese but to each it’s own.

Lunch..

Another crazy thing happened, I rushed packed a lunch this morning and I didn’t like it so needless to say the only thing I ate was the fruit cup I packed so in the end, I came home and ate a late lunch I had chicken with mix veggies kinda light yet simple. I’m still working on my water intake I been drinking it more but I still feel like I need to up my intake. It will all happen in due time.

Dinner..

My dinner consisted of turkey pork chops yes they make TURKEY pork chops and it’s actually way better/healthier for you. They taste really good baked and fried but of course no more fried food for me so I baked them and then I had greens to go with them and a sweet potato so yes it was yummy, well kind of lol! I mean my body has to adjust to going back to healthy eating but it’s worth it.

Snack-

My snacks today were almonds and pretzels those are also on my meal plan, I never really liked almonds I’m usually eating cashews that’s my favorite but I got a big bag of almonds at Walmart the other day and so now I’m eating almonds and pretzels so it’s good so far also I had a pear a few minutes ago so yeah I haven’t really been super hungry but I’m trying my best to eat all my meals. I’ll probably drink another bottle of water then head to bed soon.

Wanted to share my lunch I made for tomorrow..

Yes I’m excited lol so on the app I’m using they have a selection of recipes you can make/eat so I’m scrolling through the lunch menu section and this chicken salad catches my eye so I wrote down the recipe items and head to my kitchen.

In no way am I trying to take credit for this recipe FYI and I will be putting the link to the website in this post, I actually forgot to do it in my last post sorry!! So if you wanna go check this app out or site out go do it, it’s helpful.

So back to what we were talking about so these are the only items you need to make this.

1.chicken, 2.onions, 3.celery, 4. Light mayo, 5. Pepper, 6. Salt, 7. Lemon juice.

I grabbed a small bowl I cut some chicken up (my chicken was pre cooked) and I added some mayo also (the original recipe called for yogurt but I replaced it with mayo) you stir the mayo into the chicken basically put as much as you like( I don’t like a lot of mayo) so after that I added some onions and celery. Grabbed my lemon juice and put 1/2 in the bowl then added a dash of salt/pepper and wallah you have your simple chicken salad.

Also I’m having yogurt and almonds with my lunch tomorrow.

So today was actually a good day guys I’m trying and as always I’ll keep you updated on my progress so one day down and a lot more to go but it can be done so when you feel like giving up DON’T keep pushing because the end results are worth it. Off to bed for me gotta be up again at 5:30 😦 good night!

https://www.sparkpeople.com

Check them out!

Weight loss update..

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I honestly feel embarrassed even writing about this 🤦‍♀️ it’s crazy to think that things were going so good, my weight was in a good place and I was happy. I think my depression has played a major part in where I am now unfortunately. Food has won and my self control has lost 😐

Where I’m at..

This week has been a world win and I’ve been eating bad unfortunately but I have decided to go back on the meal plan my nutritionist has given me and I’m excited to move forward starting Monday also with the help of my mom who is going to be dieting again with me. Honestly she always does better then me she’s more dedicated, food and I have always had a rocky relationships their are times when I’m eating good and other times where food is really not my best friend. I do always accept responsibility for any mistakes I make or bad decisions that may occur in my life. I’m trying my best to get out of the space I’m in right now and trying my best to slip out of the depression and get back on track.

What’s next for me..

The only thing at this point that can be done is me striving to do my best again. I’m going to regain my strength and regain my power back and get my life back the way it was before everything went left. I’m actually proud of myself though since I’ve gone grocery shopping today and rid my refrigerator of all the bad foods so I’m excited about going back to healthy eating also I’m going to be back in the gym next week and I’m thinking about getting a trainer for the extra help. I downloaded a new app on my phone to help with my eating as well ,I’ll put the link at the end of the post but so far I like it a lot it actually will generate and make your meal plans for you also it’s great because you can blog post your journey on it and post pictures and talk to people from all over the world who are trying to lose weight so that’s great motivation.

Conclusion..

I’m definitely going to do more post to keep you updated on my weight loss journey and to kind of document it for you guys. I’m going to share the foods I’m eating and the exercises that I’m doing and different recipes. This is a little off topic but after having my daughter I was 145 pounds and I remember losing weight and getting down to 133 or so and I was happy and then the weight came back after a while and I lost it again and of course now it’s back again to 139 and I was 133/134 last. I know to most reading this your going to be like stop bitching that’s nothing just a couple of pounds but to me it’s a lot I’m really insecure about my body a lot and In the past it has lead me to starving myself and not treating my body good. It’s really about a lifestyle change and being healthy for not only me but for my daughter.

More talk..

Again I also wanna apologize for my bad blog posting lately funny thing is I wrote part of this post four days ago and then saved it as a draft and never got back to writing more on it until today. I’m trying guys I’m trying again my mind is still all over the place and I’m trying my best to come back to being myself but I will try my hardest to blog more.

Enjoy your Saturday and relax because Monday is coming soon. Thanks for reading my crazy rant. It’s time to get back to relaxing.

My favorite drinks..

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So, I’m always talking about things that I eat or don’t eat all the time but I’ve never talked about what I drink ever so why not do it now, i don’t drink soda or juice so that won’t be on the menu but of course everything else will. So as always let’s get started.

Water-

Is the main thing I drink everyday pretty much, I’m still struggling on drinking 6 bottles a day guys it’s so hard I’m lucky to make 3 or 4 a day but I’m trying, gotta keep pushing also I like green tea a lot so I put packets of it in my water. Water enhancer is also really good it’s not juice but it gives your water a little more flavor for people who don’t like water this will help you a lot so try it. Water keeps your body hydrated so try to drink a bottle or two a day to start out and work your way up.

Example: 👆

Green tea..

I absolutely love tea it’s my kryptonite literally, I drink it everyday day or every other day I know my dad tells me I’m addicted lol no but really I am honestly I love tea, somehow my daughter loves tea too and I’m trying to break her from it because she wants it every time she sees me with it. Green tea is good for weight loss and it helps burn fat( My nutritionist told me this) when I first came to her. So I suggest trying some green tea you can drink it hot or cold I prefer cold, I get the 12 pack of Lipton diet tea from Walmart. It’s only 4.99 but I also have the tea bags at home as well.

Coffee..

I love coffee, I also love the smell when I’m making it in the kitchen. I usually do decaf but mostly I use my keurig that my dad got me for Christmas it’s red my favorite color too, I put all my favorite ones in and make great coffee also I love Starbucks but the only time I actually get drinks from there is when my job gets it or if someone buys it for me, I literally never have time to drink coffee or go to Starbucks like I want too and it’s crazy because it’s one right down the street from my house yikes!!! I know I could actually go but I don’t. Coffee is also good for you as well but try to drink the decaf because all that caffeine is not good for the body.

Milk..

I love milk didn’t always use too but now my favorite milk is skim milk and lately I’ve also gotten into drinking almond milk with coconut it’s so good guys and way healthier for you trust me your body will thank you, I usually get my milk from Walmart they have the brand that, I like. Try drinking this for breakfast or even going to bed it will help you sleep better at night warm a glass up and drink it and you will sleep like a baby.

Orange juice..

I don’t drink orange juice all the time because I don’t drink juice but there is one that my grandpa use to buy all the time that is really good for you and has less calories in it and less sugar. So when I do drink a glass of orange juice it’s rare but every now and then I drink it with my breakfast. It’s a good source of vitamin D and great for calcium intake and taste ok for the most part.

Conclusion..

This are the drinks that I have started drinking since cutting out soda and juice so yep nothing too special but I will say once you cut out juice and soda the less sugar you take in your body will thank you and you will start to lose some weight along with a good meal plan.